The Higher Will and The Lower Will, Oh My
What actually transpires when we have an aspiration? A vision of greatness? A dream we reach for? What gets in the way? What happens when we heal and shift?
When we transition from what we have to choosing what we want to experience, the mechanics that kept us out of the experience begin to shift. They rise up to the surface to be released and cleared, which is great except for one small problem….we get in the way!
Consider you received an unwanted experience in your past that was radically different than that you choose, lets call that experience an apple, and the experience you are most in affinity with is an orange. When you received the apple you were not neutral to it, as you are asking for the orange you built up radical opinions to the apple, probably hated it for showing up and messing up your lunch. The apple was a gift to show you something about your lower will, your karma, a treasure of learning experiences lived in that apple, however they did not fully validate you.
The apple made you learn that you really wanted the orange. You prayed to the orange with the focal point of the apple not being good enough, you really validated the existence of the apple. Then you learned how to cultivate and plant the seeds of the orange. You watered the seeds, affirmed their growth, let them sit in the light to grow. The orange tree begins to blossom a small flower as you see it emerging out of the ground. Hey it is enthusiasm time, you get excited. The next day you wake up ready to see if the orange appeared and right out in front of your consciousness is a apple the size of Mt St Helen. You screech an overwhelming “EEEK”. Much to your dismay your feel doomed to applehood. What just happened? Consider the totality of the apple was coming to the surface to say goodbye to you before it heads out the door for eternity, it simply was at that stage and had no judgment of you whatsoever. You had judgment of it and at that point your focus shifted from the joy of receiving the orange into fighting and engaging the apple. The apple then became locked in transit and could not leave like it planned, more so it has now become a real emotional enemy and an unwanted guest.
So what happens now? Most of us forget about the orange tree, no longer water it, leave it to wilt, and engage our unwanted guest and beat ourselves up about its occupancy in our life. It must be my fault, your fault, everyone fault that the apple has arrived and would not leave. Now it takes twice as much work to release the apple. The apple has become karmic.
Consider that the higher will has and always wanted you to be happy, it wants you to experience both the apple until it is ready to go (because at some point in your time frame you cultivated it) and the orange when it is ready to arrive. As the apple is packing its bags to leave and just wants to spend a moment to say thank you and goodbye, celebrate it, thank it, and surrender it to the higher will. You may have to do this over and over again (consider you can only let go of one bite at a time if you really were holding on with both hands, or worse yet you turned it into apple sauce) and go back to water your orange blossom with the joy and knowing that it is coming in to meet you very soon. The more you learn spiritual tools to effectuate releasing the apple and bringing in the orange the more you will enjoy both aspects of your transition with light and joy.
In joy,
Cynthia Warwick Seiler
Rainbow Institute
